Hello,
I decided to write in english today. Why? I don't know. Why not?:P
(We see things and ask "why". But we should dream things that never were and ask "why not") This is absoulutely one ofe my favorite thoughts of all and fits very much to my life, with me.
Well well... what have i done lately ? I haven't made any posts here, I know. You know why? I had to think and i was ill. I HAD to think. Actually 4 last years in my life have been very colorful and there has been VERY much thinking. This is very long story, but I am truly happy and thankful for everything. E-v-e-r-y-t-h-i-n-g. All the shit I had - thank you. I would be never here if wouldn't had that mess (from childhood until today). I feel very happy and i feel like i want to help all the world. I hope that my dreams come true, charity has a big part in my future. If everything will happen, I belive I can help many people. And what's most important - i can do what i love most...So, I have some ideas and business plans.
Few seconds ago i thought that maybe my text here feels a bit naive or something...but you know what: ( I am talking with myself now) this your BLOG and YOUR life and You know best that world belongs for those who dare! So why do you want to become stupid and chicken and some typical whoever again? Shine and be who you are! If you feel happy then let it shine! You won't live forever ( Don't take life too seriously, you never get out alive).
So If you feel like you want to be critical and narrow - this blog is not for you. Go out and talk with yourself and ask why are you unhappy and jealous-pain-in-the-ass chicken. ( I have done this hundred of times:)) Harjutamine teeb meistriks Practicing will make you a champion:) Use your time:)
I am reading book from Valentina Siig about her husband Arvi Siig (who is now unfortunately dead). I think that Arvi Siig is one of the most fantastic Estonian poet's ever..
There are very good points in this book. Like:
"Kes pole kannatanud, pole inimeseks saanudki."
"Kui inimene on surnud, siis pole seda kauaks, kui ta on aga loll, siis on see alatiseks".
"Igaüks kondab mööda oma labürinti üksinda".
See on kindlasti üks mu lemmikutest raamatutest, suurepärast kirjutatud ja paksult elutarkust täis, nii-nii targa mehe kohta...
Üks luuletus ka:
Müür
Ei, mitte filmis -
ilmsi, silmsi, silmsi
ma tsooni müüri
nägin tsooni hoovilt.
Ma nägin inimeste kõigeks harjund silmi,
mis nagu kivid müüris
midagi ei soovi.
Mind haaras masendus.
Ma tajusin ja tajun,
et mingi müür
ju ammu piirab mindki.
Ma ründan meeleheitel!
Asjata! Ei vaju...
Vaid aastais kõrgeneb
mu ümber ta ring-ringilt!
Jah, nüüd ma tean: ma ise seda laon.
On mõttelaad ta äraneetud nimi.
Mu ainus süü,
et lapsena ta jaoks ma võtsin õpetajalt vastu
nurgakivi.
Kes käskis uskuda?!
Oo! Nõudis jaatust,
jaatust
mult teie võlts
või ausa lolli hääl.
ei kasvand minust
teile teie saatust.
Kuid, mõistnud tuuma,
leppimatuks jään.
Tean: olen arg.
Tean: teil on veelgi võimu.
Ja teiegi eks ole isad, emad.
Kuid usun aega,
tema õigust,
õiglust:
meist kõigist kauem
järelpõlv ju elab!
Mind aitab ausaks jääda
optimistlik raev.
Laon kivi seina -
kaks
sealt välja murran.
Ja kui sel viisil tulekski mul surra -
see pole pooltões oleskluse vaev...
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=muhVKlWFWuQ
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